But we haven't even got to the meat of the story.  So after two weeks of the program my housing situation fell through and I needed to stay at another Mogadao student's house that Friday night.  When I woke up on Saturday I received an email from Mogadao letting us know that we would be having a meeting with everyone that Monday to discuss matters pertaining to Jennifer Lopez (name change to protect identity/make it fun!), which they admitted they had rather tried not to discuss publically.  I went out and mentioned it to the student that I was staying with and they were like "You don't know the half of it".

 

I was then told that this student had been brought in by Zhen, along with a number of other students, all of whom were told by Zhen earlier in the week that Jennifer Lopez was spreading lies about Zhen because JLo was upset about Zhen's supposed unrequited love for her, and they were literally told by Zhen "not to listen to anything she says".  This had all been prompted by JLo sending Zhen a love letter about a week before, which, in receiving, caused Zhen to instruct her assistants to send out a formal email from the school inviting her in for a talk.

 

JLo had been at the school for about 6 months, maybe a little longer, and had got very, very close to Zhen.  They were spending upwards of 16 hours a day together and it was clear that JLo had become Zhen's favorite.  In having spent most of my waking hours for about a month with JLo after this debacle went down, I now know why - JLo is the bomb, she's super sweet and super real and smart and loving and incredibly supportive.  It's funny because I thought I was going to Mogadao for Zhen, but it turns out I was going for JLo, and so that I could be gifted with this wild ride of a story to share with the world to help prevent a predator from taking advantage of other people, among other things.

 

At this particular point in the story, before having gotten to hear from JLo first-hand all the wild things that Zhen had done, I just thought this could have all been romantic drama that ultimately didn't need to involve me, so I'm going to jump ahead to some facts which I want to highlight, because ultimately my writing this is an attempt to make explicitly clear all the bizarre and fucked up things Zhen did, despite her saying many times that she drew a clear boundary with her students, especially JLo, around sexuality.

 

1. Zhen openly admits to having had fucked up situations with students falling in love with her and then being asked to leave the school at least 4 times, all of which occurred in a time span of less than 6 years, which includes 2 years of "silence", meaning it occurred at least approximately once a year of actually being at the school that we know, and as far as JLo and I were able to gather, it happened to at least 1 or 2 other women during that time as well.

 

2.  Zhen told JLo she watched her masterbate in Zhen's class on "erotogenesis" where you are instructed to close your eyes while you and everyone else in the class masterbates and raises sexual energy in a group setting.  I know, I know, it's *already* weird in itself, and obviously the only thing keeping it semi-normal is the idea that you aren't supposed to open your eyes, but when the teacher does it all bets are off babes!  Also, side note, the 3rd or 4th most senior teacher there, Thomas Jaggerz, who admitted to having a crush on JLo, also chose to sit right next to JLo every time they did this exercise, and voiced his disappointment when she chose to move her position, despite his having a wife with whom he claimed to be monogamous.

 

3.  In the week that I was present, when Zhen took the women separately to teach them masterbatory and circulatory erotic techniques, she coaxed them into taking off their tops and rubbing their nipples because they "had created such a space of safety and trust", and in leaving the room afterward remarked "I'll be taking this memory with me".  I was told by women that they felt violated afterwards, because duh.  In a previous workshop, she physically penetrated two women with her fingers during this part of the workshop, supposedly in order to demonstrate on them, and in the male workshop that I was a part of, she supposedly needed to demonstrate on a volunteer that had a strap on with balls on it because not all of them did (we were all made to wear strap-ons even though it truly is not necessary, though perhaps I feel this way because it now feels obvious to me that the teacher does this in lieu of watching pornography), and she chose a man who she seemed to me to clearly have a kind of crush on, and in demonstrating her technique needed to "get under the balls", touching his penis, albeit still over his shorts.

 

4.  Zhen took JLo's head once and put it under her armpit and instructed her to inhale.  If your definition of clear sexual boundaries involves this kind of kinky shit I'd love to know what's still left on the other side of the boundary for you.

 

5.  There are at least two instances of Zhen having people touch her erect penis, including during a rehearsal of the play she was producing with Britney Spears (name change to protect identity), a member of the production who Zhen had cast as Ophelia and who Zhen would send messages saying things like "I'm naked and lying on my floor listening to the rain" at midnight, making multiple attempts to break Britney and her partner Justin Timberlake apart (final name change to protect identity), another student at Mogadao who had been studying there for over 3 years, so that Zhen could have her (The other stories on this site detail this much more).  In having Britney touch her erect penis Zhen said "I am going to be erect many times during rehearsal so  might as well get it over with". 

This is, of course - in the voice of Wanda Sykes - "NOT NORMAL".  And it is called grooming - when predators get their victims and all the potential victims around them normalized to a fucked up situation by making it seem normal in an otherwise casual moment.  Zhen constantly suggested to Justin Timberlake as well that he would be better suited to another student at the school, which prompted Justin to consider this possibility, creating a big rift between him and Britney, despite the fact that Britney was not a lesbian.  Zhen would praise JT in class as her star student, something I bore direct witness to, and then behind his back insult him to Britney.  In my short time there Zhen offered lots of praise and 90% of the time it was for physical beauty, something she is very neurotically obsessed with.

 
I'll come back to these points, but for now I just want to make them front and center as I tell the story.

 

Anyway, the student I'm staying with that Friday night informs me that JLo has called a meeting with some other students that day and the following day in order to prepare for the meeting on Monday, and to communicate everything that went down so as to make her side of the story very clear, and since I'm with him I might as well come.  I didn't know JLo much at all at that point, but we did share one close friend in common in NYC and we had bonded over it a few times, so I didn't feel out of place.

 

When we arrived, the story started to come together, for me even moreso than for others perhaps because JLo took to me as person to trust and work out what she was going to write and communicate in the meeting on Monday.  I quite literally spent almost 3 full days learning the entirety of what happened between her and Zhen, Britney + Justin and Zhen, in addition to other women who didn't want to go on record because of how afraid they are of Zhen.  So I want to state very definitively what I believe to be true: Zhenzan Dao aka Zhenevere Sophia Dao aka Daniel Villasenor is an extremely manipulative, dangerous, textbook sociopathic narcissist who very possibly has a lengthy criminal history that is only beginning to see the light of day and who is likely to continue abusing people if she isn't stopped.

 

Much of those 3 days were spent trying to agree on a structure for the conversation that would take place on Monday, and unfortunately at that point it was assumed that Zhen might take personal accountability, so the structure of the conversation did not end up allowing for rebuttals.  Not a great structure when Zhen ended up lying over and over again.  It started late and people got tired, and many people had already chosen sides.  Despite my having spent so much time with JLo, I was willing to listen if Zhen was willing to admit that perhaps she was in the wrong and had contributed to the situation with JLo, but that did not happen.

 

Rather, her defense ran something like this:  "I told JLo that our relationship could not be of a sexual nature, but that it could be one of courtly love, intended for the edification of her soul".  So here's what that nonsense means.  It means that you have a teacher who will literally say the words "I am sex", whose teachings are ALL about getting in touch with your sexual energy thinking it's somehow healthy to advise someone to fall in love with her while *repressing* her sexual desires, all the while committing obvious sexual advances towards her.

 

The idea of courtly love always was and always will be definitively neurotic.  It usually involves a knight performing noble deeds in honor of a lady who he has often never met (lol) and who essentially represents eternal beauty or a vision of the divine to him.  I'm pretty well-versed in Jungian Psychotherapy, but I don't think you need to be in order to see that on the one hand you've got these super-macho masculine warriors and on the other you've got these pale-skinned ladies waiving handkerchiefs from towers, and that this yearning for feminine sexuality without consummation perfectly depicts the challenge to integrate femininity into themselves - the subconscious desire to do so but an equally powerful subconscious unwillingness to let it happen.  The weird thing is, if you'd have painted this picture for Zhen, she'd have probably called it out for the neurotic behavior it is, but in her own life she liked imagining herself as both a kind of damsel in distress and a vision of divine beauty (we'll get to the beauty part, just you wait).  She would lovingly refer to JLo as her knight, which of course *also* meant JLo did lots of free work for her.