To be ancient is a dichotomy to being historical, hence relevant
here. I was surprised to read the asterisk notation at the most recent
newsletter saying there are attempts to defame ZSD (shortened for
brevity). After reading the posts I realize that most of them have come
from recent times, in the last couple of years. Missing is the
perspective of the past years through the many evolutions of Daniel into
what he/she has become now. However harm has been done and hence this
is a recourse to some need to be heard about that harm. I hope that the
efforts bring to light change that is sometimes needed like Chen
stomping his foot to the earth cracking apart the the structure. With
shock, Chen symbolizes the eldest son in the family, the family being
the vessel of self, the one we are born of, and the community we
practice and life by. Thunder raises fear, to begin and renew and I do
believe these moments will lead to this. Have faith. Speak your truth
always.
There is history for those that have come recent to
MogaDao that with some light may help to know more. Those that knew the
Daniel as a student of literature, a writer of a strange and violent
novel, during the days when he was practicing martial arts, and
competing. He trained invisible elsewhere from where he taught, so as to
keep the story of himself away from the appearance of what he was
creating. The driving moments of his life as he explains through these
competitions, and family abandonment and rejection reduced his Qi to the
point of fatigue which is the seed story he tells when explaining what
brought him to MogaDao. He went to China for competitions, and collapsed
there. Being treated in Qigong clinics as he says brought him to Shea,
his elder teacher. He tells stories of how erotic it was listening to
his 90 year old teacher having sex in the next room. There has always
been an underlying sexual current with him, which I suppose inspired
through his own healing, to teach his understanding. The authority in
which he creates these courses to heal however are in his own making.
The authority is self professed.
Upon return to the states he became a farrier, a meditation to reintegrate back to the American Way. He brought back an exotic practice that was in demand, in a land that has many wounded. He began teaching in small places, in rec centers, and used charisma to charm at least always one person to be the maker for him. A wounded soul that believe though him they would too be healed. That is the attraction, but the problem is power. Each place he went, there were students, and then moving on, there were other students, until he settled in Santa Fe. Finding a population of elder wealth to tap into.
I think up until 2012 he was the Qigong teacher,
humble, writing, taking care of the community, still using those around
to do the duties of the guru complex. But there was a moment that Im not
sure many know, during that time period where he suffered a severe
concussion from a MMA competition and had brain swelling. For me, I
noticed the change that came after that, in a grotesque way. There began
the talk of the “I’m going away” and it began being used 2 years into
the making to draw people to live and practice with him. There was a
mission, its in the guru complex, if the teacher goes away, there is a
fear of aloneness and insecurity, so there is a stronger pull like a bug
to a light. People do strange things, like so many from the Portland
area selling their houses and moving their lives to Santa Fe to dive
into a new teacher program that he created and demanded that if one
wanted to get certified, they had to be there, living, taking 10 or more
classes a week at a hefty price. It was the 2 years of wealth gain,
that allowed him to buy property and a house, disappear from the
teaching, teach his dog sign language and develop his plan. It is true
there were flyers posted online of his teaching in California during the
silence, some found it, it was not hard to find if one searched. So for
those that knew it began to set doubt.
In the building up to
the silence, those that were the favorites like taking videos, running
the website, managing the books and money had special priviledges to
private conversations. And everyone seemed to wish an audience with
Daniel. Now he was calling himself Master Zhen Dao. Self professed.
There was always the claim that the old ways of being present, was the
way to practice his Qigong. So it demanded presence in life there. No
videos, no online information and those that asked for permission to use
an exercise in books or written matter were excised.
The way to
secure the income was to demand that one needed to live in Santa Fe, or
else never reach the ranks of the elite. The first immersions and
certifying teachers were subjective. And so many bought the kool aid. I
use that term because it had begun to become cultish then. When one
teacher makes all the rules, the pathways to the cosmos, only through
him, and sets the rules of how to play, how to pay, and how people would
go forward in their lives, it becomes a cult. But people didn’t see it.
Being far away and returning for a presence soon after the return after
the silence, I noticed one practice, showing up to a bunch of shaved
heads, males and female. Following suit of Zhenzan Dao. Wearing little
pouches around their necks with inscriptions of duty, all wearing
similar clothes, black. Were they trying to become him, or was this some
subconsious ushered wish through the teacher. Brought about through a
guilt sense, of living frugal, monk like lives, dispelling the world, to
come into the circle.
There was a gaunt appearance, and
slight mental instability I noticed happening with Zhenzan and the
students that were in the circle. Nikesha saying she was a Daoist
Priestess, Zhenzan being the god, or whatever was deep inside the
stories of the Greek Gods in his psyche. They began living that reality
walking a thin veil of reality. The words began to change, the courses
were renamed, the progression was changing. Those that didn’t have a
comparison, don’t realize that the forms are the same, with different
nuances just renamed. But Zhen would make statements that those that
were not upgrading, like booting up an upgrade, were not in the circle,
and didn’t have the understanding. If the old students wanted to stay in
the game, they had to take the new classes, jump back into the
expensive immersions, now become Greek names of Ethea, Eros, etc.
Changing MogaDao from what it began from into something unrecognizable.
Those
from the beginning, I don’t think there are many if any around anymore,
they see the change and its not good. Those watching from a distance
are amazed and watching unsure how this will turn out. Those in the mix
now, I read the stories and feel really shocked at the gross abuse, and
wonder why no one is reporting? If a teacher touched someone’s genitals,
anywhere, it's sexual abuse. Why then is noone feeling the shock? It is
the guru syndrome. Have seen it in the yoga world, until it finally
cracks, you hear about Bikram sexually abusing students, and all those
years noone said anything, and the girls thought that having sex with
him would somehow enlighten them. Once again its not a shocker that
there is talk about all the drama of relationship, sex and the
quietness, its a psychotic submission. Its classic psychosis. You just
have to back away to see it.
I am sorry to all those that have
been harmed. That makes me really sad, and even sadder that such a
brilliant man has become such a mess. Trauma comes in all forms. And
you would have to know what it feels like to be rejected as the person
you are by a parent or both, that manifests into becoming them. I think
Zheneviere is a manifestation, a need for power of an deeply insecure
psychosis. Sometimes you can dig so deep into a story that you begin to
live the fantasies that seem better than the actual life. Exactly why
television is the numbing agent, allowing one to seek refuge in
another’s life. Being a god, the delusion of grandeur, self possessed,
self authorizing, is what sets those apart from the winners, while the
realists that see the world as it is, are depressed. The feed each
other, because those that need something to believe in, are trapped into
the delusion of the guru as if that power is real and attainable, at
the very least sharable so life is not so alone, grieved, feared.
As a conclusion, it would be wise of those that are protecting ZSD aka
Daniel Villasenor, to step back and see the threads. And for Zhen to
seek help before there is serious, if not already harm done. Blessings
everyone, love on your quest to healing.